They say that the things you love about your partner, significant other is what will drive you nuts about them. That is the truest statement ever. I am a steady person, but I had a fucked life. I do have problems like anyone does really. You never get out of life unscarred. My boyfriend has had a sheltered life. Normal, both parents around. Easy I guess you can say. In comparison to mine.
He loves that I have issues. I think it speaks to him that maybe he can fix them or help me. I don't need his help, I learned to put all that has happened behind me. Strangely though, it turns him on lol.
I don't mind because I benefit from this. His passion for me is great and so is his love.
My problem at the moment, is when I do have days where I am emo or upset, he takes it personal, like he is doing a bad job. He gets so angry, like he wants to leave. He even says he wants to leave. The things he loves about me, he gets mad if I even barely have a real problem. I don't understand or even know what to do, but him being mad and threatening to leave makes whatever minor issue I had be forgotten and all I can think about is that I am going to lose him.
This has happened so damn often, I almost want to tell him to get the hell gone. I guess the problem is when you think that the one you are with could just leave you so easily. You would be barely a blip on their life. I know it is not the case, it is his stubborn, prideful ass, which I might add is one of the reasons I love him. It is also one of the reasons I am about to say just leave. I love him so strong, but I need to feel like he is human with me. That I am not just some fun time he is having, but something that is meaningful in his life. Someone that, if they were not around, he would miss me and think, "damn, I fucked up".
If I would lose him, it would shatter my life, and I don't feel like it would be the same for him. I think the thought that I love him way more than he loves me, it is getting to me. He says he loves me more because he puts up with me and my craziness. I am not sure what is him, or just his pride.
Anyways, that is it for me. I needed to vent. Thanks for reading!