I am a dork today. Many days I forget and talk about everything bad going on. All my doubts and fears. Today I don't know. I realize how lucky I am. God brought my love to me, into my life. And when it is time, God will take him from me. And I focus so much on that part, I forget to just appreciate the now. I love so much that I feel this way, this love for him, this love from him. I don't know if I will ever feel it again. I don't want to. I want this love to live in my heart til there is nothing left of me. I sound crazy probably, but I don't care lol. I hope he never forgets how wonderful and lovely he is, and yes I use lovely on a man because honestly, there is no other way to describe him. Not just his looks but his heart and soul. Anyways, This is random and crazy so goodnight!!!