From the moment we spoke, that first time, I knew you were different. Even before we met, I saw you. I noticed you. You were reaching for me. Without words. I remember the days, the days before we talked. When I would just see you there. Even not knowing you, I felt you were lonely. I wanted so much to talk to you, but I am shy lol. I wish I had spoke then, just to have you a bit longer in my life. I don't know why I held back, but I am so happy you spoke to me finally.
You have no idea how much I will miss you. How much I will miss your laughter, your kisses, everything about you. Even your burps lol. I wish I could hold on to you. One day though, you would feel trapped in your life. You will feel like you missed out on being young. Going out, traveling, finishing school. I trust in your love, I know you would stick with me through hell just to be with me. I can't allow it.
I need to make a decision soon. I know you won't be able to apply for school next year if I don't. I just hang on to these days. I honest should have let you go months ago. I just couldn't. I keep setting dates in my head and then when they come I just can't do it. Anywho, this is enough for now.